Help ! Please
Posted: Mon Nov 18, 2013 12:02 am
Hello I'm a 20 year old. Female
I've been having this horrible pain for a year now and only recently has it gotten worse all I know is that I stimulated my clit and after that I went to the toilet multiple times whenever I went to the toilet I felt like I needed to pee it felt like a painful orgasm afterwards since then the feeling didn't go it turned into a nightmare and I was able to forget about it by constantly distracting myself I've had enough and I went to the doctors twice both at which they said it could be uti I thought ok perhaps this is a uti since then it's only gotten worse I' don't know how I've coped with this for a year but I've been too embarrassed to go back and thought this was all in my head
I feel ashamed writing this but I seriously believe I've caused some damage I've never used a vibrator and since then I've been having this peeing urge 24 hours a day kind of feeling it never goes I live in the UK and ive been to the doctors many times the problem is I feel angry and don't come back to then even though I told them I've been having this for a long time but they always give me antibiotics thinking it's a uti so I've lost hope in them and now I'm just in pieces and at my darkest moment in my life recently I've contemplated suicide that's how bad this is affecting me I feel broken and ashamed to talk to my parents about this they are very conservative and it's causing me to feel isolated most of the time I don't go outside I stay in my room crying this never goes away I'm sick of it I can't sleep it never switched off
I want to chop it off I know this sounds bad but it's more of a nuisance than a blessing for me I wish I never touched down there i don't want to be in a relationship because of this I feel like a freak
I don't even know what to do or where to begin all I know is I think I've damaged something and since then it's been giving me this feeling of needing to pee a lot and these strange sensations I'm scared and lonely at the moment I want to go uni And study nursing as it's my passion to help others but now I would rather stay in my house under the covers with some ice
I've been having these issues on and off ever since I was 15 as hard as this is to explain it was more of a background type of pain hardly noticeable it never really affected me I thought it was normal but since then I continued to touch there resulting in this nightmare
I'm soo confused I don't know where to go next or how to deal with this I don't want to end up killing myself but sometimes I have the feelings to. Especially when you don't know what is wrong with you
I've done some research and I think I have damages my puedendal/dorsal nerve this is only a theory currently the doctors still believe this is not possible even though I told them that this is nerve damage because of my symptoms the constant burning pain and the frequent visits to the bathroom sometimes it feels like an electric shock shoots through my body which scares me the only thing is that I don't find the feeling to get worse when I sit down it feels the same regardless so I'm doubting it's an entrapment so I don't know currently I'm lost
My siblings think I'm a hypochondriac the amount of times I've been to the doctors so I'm scared to go now cuz my parents will wonder why I'm going all the time and I really don't want to tell them
Oh and if I ever become pain free I want to help people with chronic pain
Sorry about my grammar I just feel really down to care about full stops
Please help !
I've been having this horrible pain for a year now and only recently has it gotten worse all I know is that I stimulated my clit and after that I went to the toilet multiple times whenever I went to the toilet I felt like I needed to pee it felt like a painful orgasm afterwards since then the feeling didn't go it turned into a nightmare and I was able to forget about it by constantly distracting myself I've had enough and I went to the doctors twice both at which they said it could be uti I thought ok perhaps this is a uti since then it's only gotten worse I' don't know how I've coped with this for a year but I've been too embarrassed to go back and thought this was all in my head
I feel ashamed writing this but I seriously believe I've caused some damage I've never used a vibrator and since then I've been having this peeing urge 24 hours a day kind of feeling it never goes I live in the UK and ive been to the doctors many times the problem is I feel angry and don't come back to then even though I told them I've been having this for a long time but they always give me antibiotics thinking it's a uti so I've lost hope in them and now I'm just in pieces and at my darkest moment in my life recently I've contemplated suicide that's how bad this is affecting me I feel broken and ashamed to talk to my parents about this they are very conservative and it's causing me to feel isolated most of the time I don't go outside I stay in my room crying this never goes away I'm sick of it I can't sleep it never switched off
I want to chop it off I know this sounds bad but it's more of a nuisance than a blessing for me I wish I never touched down there i don't want to be in a relationship because of this I feel like a freak
I don't even know what to do or where to begin all I know is I think I've damaged something and since then it's been giving me this feeling of needing to pee a lot and these strange sensations I'm scared and lonely at the moment I want to go uni And study nursing as it's my passion to help others but now I would rather stay in my house under the covers with some ice
I've been having these issues on and off ever since I was 15 as hard as this is to explain it was more of a background type of pain hardly noticeable it never really affected me I thought it was normal but since then I continued to touch there resulting in this nightmare
I'm soo confused I don't know where to go next or how to deal with this I don't want to end up killing myself but sometimes I have the feelings to. Especially when you don't know what is wrong with you
I've done some research and I think I have damages my puedendal/dorsal nerve this is only a theory currently the doctors still believe this is not possible even though I told them that this is nerve damage because of my symptoms the constant burning pain and the frequent visits to the bathroom sometimes it feels like an electric shock shoots through my body which scares me the only thing is that I don't find the feeling to get worse when I sit down it feels the same regardless so I'm doubting it's an entrapment so I don't know currently I'm lost
My siblings think I'm a hypochondriac the amount of times I've been to the doctors so I'm scared to go now cuz my parents will wonder why I'm going all the time and I really don't want to tell them
Oh and if I ever become pain free I want to help people with chronic pain
Sorry about my grammar I just feel really down to care about full stops
Please help !