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[Swedishguy]

Hi! This will be my first post on these forums, that are great from what I have read so far. I am not sure what is wrong with me, but it is probably neurological. If it is related to the Pudendal or small fibre nerves, however, I am not sure of.

My story:
I have always had very low self esteem in regards of my penis, I have been diagnosed with BDD by a psychologist. My penis is 19 cm long and not small at all when compared against a penis size chart. However I have still always percieved it by beeing to short.
This was brought on by my upbringing, my mother left my biological father for a man with a larger penis (in my mind, the only thing that he had that my father did not), and she even spoke to me about how a big penis "is better than a small one". Then the first love of life left me for a guy with "the biggest penis in school". I even got teased in school for having a small penis, although I do not understand why. I think it might be that they noticed that it made me respond, and thus they continued.

One day at the age of 22(I am now 35) I was visiting my local swimming pool. Before I hit the showers I usually went to the bathroom to try to make my penis appear bigger (out of shame of being small). I´d run hot water over it and pull at it (with my hands, not a "jerking motion" but a firm pull). But this time, all of a sudden the penis "changed" I could feel the sensations dissapear from it. It didnt hurt at all. It just felt "weird". Since then I have had reduced sensitivity in my penis. My head is almost completly numb. It feels like I am wearing 3 sets of rubbers. I can tell the diffrence between hot and cold and I can feel when I pinch the skin. However the sensation feels week and somehow deleyed. Soft touching (which is what feels good in a sexual way) is not registered at all. My scrotum is unchanged though, and the foreskin is somewhat sensitive.

I can achive an erected and ejaculate, but my orgasms are VERY weak. I think about this all most all of the time, and I have had a host of psycological problems because of it. Mostly panic anxiety and depression.
I have been to the doctors, they said I had some measurable decline in penile sensitivity (He used a tuning fork to determend if I felt the vibrations.) I have also done bloodworks, which came back fine. No other tests have been done.

A couple of questions;
1. Is it really possible to manually pull so hard on your penis that you sever a nerve? And wouldnt that hurt? Or bleed? Or get inflammed? Or SOMETHING?
2. Is there any hope that I can ever get better?
3. Is there a diet like Metanx (http://www.metanx.com/) that can help me heal?



Sincerely
/Swedishguy

[Violet M]

Swedishguy, I can't say for sure but a stretch injury causing neuropathy seems more likely than severing a nerve. Maybe trying some of the lifestyle change suggestions under treatment options on the homepage could be helpful -- and possibly some pelvic floor PT to help relax any muscles that might be tense and impinging on the nerve.

Violet

[Swedishguy]

Thanks for the reply! What is a "stretch injury" exactly? What part of the nerve is damaged in this type of scenario? I´m guessing the small fibres, but I am an amateur in all of this. Do you know a link to pelvic floor exercises?

Thanks again.

[Violet M]

Thanks for the reply! What is a "stretch injury" exactly? What part of the nerve is damaged in this type of scenario? I´m guessing the small fibres, but I am an amateur in all of this. Do you know a link to pelvic floor exercises?

Thanks again.

Not sure I can describe the exact mechanism of a stretch injury. My guess is either the myelin sheath or the axons could be damaged. More info at these websites:

http://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/neurolog ... njury.html
http://tinyurl.com/qcdqxcp
http://neurosurgery.ucla.edu/body.cfm?id=197
http://tinyurl.com/p7l2qxy

For a somewhat more scientific discussion you can see this article.

http://emedicine.medscape.com/article/1172408-clinical
http://tinyurl.com/k7bouqs

Pelvic floor exercises can be done either for strengthening or for relaxing the pelvic floor. Typically PN patients have an overly contracted pelvic floor and strengthening exercises can make them worse so my guess is that relaxation techniques are what you would be interested in but it's hard to say unless you have had an evaluation by a good pelvic floor PT. Exercises can be specific to the person and their needs, but one book that might be helpful is David Wise's A Headache in the Pelvis. Relaxation exercises help some people so it's definitely worth a try.

Violet