I used to do this thing called 'jelqing' when I was in my teens. Don't ever do it. Accompanying it I also stretched my Penis.
13 years ago I was stretching my penis and I decided to also kegel at the same time, with my Penis stretched. I didnt notice any issues that evening but I woke up the next morning and my penis was numb. When I say numb, not completely, but 80-90% on the shaft (less further to the base), and the head of my penis is about 70% numb. Still somewhat sensitive on the frenulum, and I can pinch the skin on the shaft and feel pain.
I immediately went to A&E and was told I had just irritated a nerve and sensation would return.
After a while I was referred to a neurourologist and received an MRI which they say showed sever degenerative spine disease in my lower back. Apart from that, they could not find anything else. I was very surprised given this is a top hospital in London, with top neuro-urologists.
Nevertheless, I was pretty much told to pack my bags and hope for the best.
The issue still persists to this day, and has really impacted my life. I asked for another referral to the neuro-urology department this year as it felt like symptoms were deteriorating.
My symptoms:
Penile numbness
Dull ache/burning on left side of saddle which I can feel from around my anus and it goes slightly up the perineum toward my penis.
Harder to kegel - sometimes it feels like the muscles do not move much. And other times they move ALOT more. Very confusing
Harder to tell when I need to urinate
Weaker urination stream - I dont know if this is due to a nerve issue, or there is an actual blockage? I would like to note on the odd times symptoms get a bit better and I am able to masturbate/have intercourse, my urine stream is markedly stronger.
I feel some scar tissue just after the anus, toward the penis on the underside (I think I tore something and this formed in the months following the injury). I just find it weird as the doctors told me there was nothing there. Looking back I feel they may have been lying to me.
Through years of living with this, I have noticed there are periods where things are a bit better (5-10%) at most. And my libido comes back somewhat, erections dont feel weak, my penis 'hangs' with more blood flow etc.
Right now as I type this sitting here I can feel a burning in the exact same location mentioned above - always on the left side. From inside my anus, to the shaft of my penis. I also notice this side is slightly more numb than the left side.
Sorry for the long post - and possible spelling mistakes (I am on my phone).
I have some questions:
1.) Are there support networks for dealing with issues such as these? I feel like I am alone and some days really struggle. I feel now this issue isn't getting better. For me I need help with self acceptance.
2.) I don't understand the causes for the condition to 'relax' slightly, and then other times I feel like there is literally nothing between my legs. My only idea could be masturbation, or too much of it could make the issue flare up - but I dont masturbate all too often anyway.
3.) What could this burning/dull ache be when the condition flares up? It is always on the left side.
4.) Apart from what happens at the neurourologist on my next visit, what else can I be doing to further investigate this issue/try and minimise symptoms?
5.) Has anyone else had an injury like this and can give me tips on what helped for them?
6.) Would anyone reccommend I get in touch with any of the doctors/surgeons mentioned on this forum to get this issue investigated further?
Thanks very much.